Today I went to Best Buy to look at Apple computers since my Toshiba is acting up after 3 years... Well, I am just not going to buy an Apple. They have dispensed with the dvd player/recorder and I have to have that. I don't have many dvds, only about four or five, but they have to be viewable on something... I loved my old Apple G3 and even though it did not have rewritable cd/dvd, I could still be using it now if I had not been hearing voices and then dumped all my software in the bin! I am fast becoming a luddite. I just like my wires and peripherals, they make me feel clued in. The leg bone connected to da hip bone... I don't have an iphone, and I only know what an app is by hearsay. I have a Government funded Safelink phone, for local and emergency calls only. I do not subscribe to netflicks, I have good old fashioned cable tv and my mom gave me a Pilates VHS for Christmas this year. I just am not ready to slim down all my equipment, I have a history here, and I'm already becoming obsolete. It is really weird for me. I was in film sixteen years ago when I had my first psychosis and I was right on the pulse of the technology. But now I have to think laterally if I want to have an up to date system and I can't afford it, I can't even schedule in Netflix for nine dollars a month. I am a little bit nervous about it, a little depressed. I just don't understand why I have to be shoehorned into Netflix when it doesn't offer all the films I would like to see! I have collected some films and those are what I like to watch. I just think the technology is moving too fast. If I was an Apple customer today I would complain about the planned obsolescence. Of course, when my husband and I bought our Apple G3 17 years ago, we were one generation behind usb ports and cables and a couple behind rewriteable cds and dvds. But still, a little laptop could have covered that and we could have the big computer for our film and photography pursuits, which is why we bought it in the first place. Yes, I advise everyone to keep and care for their equipment before it's too late! I also need to buy a digital camera, not because I want one, but because the film cameras I like are no longer for sale. You snooze you lose, I guess. I just wish I could be excited about all the new developments instead of scared and too poor to enjoy them. It gives me a headache all this development. I had to come home and make a cup of tea to calm down. I worry about the future a lot. Disability is a blessing, but it is not much money at all. Not if equipment breaks down and needs repair or replacing, which it inevitably does. I remember being able to handle emergencies by just throwing money at the situation. But having schizophrenia means having to learn to cut back and make do. The illness lends itself to that, anxiety and the inability to hold a job forces an economy of mind over matter. Sometimes I am taken aback when I remember how seamlessly I succumbed to my illness and made adjustments. I knew I had to end my marriage, I knew I could no longer work, I knew I had to move back home to my parents' house. I stopped caring about how I looked so that the trendy clothes I had collected were ridiculous. Schizophrenia is like a big spanking.
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Somebody
1/2/2015 07:30:37 am
Actually the Apple products don't date out that fast. Here I am, using an 8 year old Mac. Runs well, everything updated.
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