I have made some discoveries and a little progress. First of all, I looked into having my criminal record expunged. I found out that you can only have one expunction in your lifetime and I have more than one arrest on my record. Each incident was schizophrenia-induced as for ten years I did not know I had schizophrenia and therefore did not have medicine or a psychiatrist to see. Each incident was also a trip to the hospital, except for one, I spent a night in jail in Wilmington. I have been very ashamed of these incidents . Although I have no convictions, I am a college graduate and a goody-two-shoes normally. Schizophrenia was a cruel taskmaster. I wanted to clear my record in case I ever have to rent an apartment, get a loan or, in the land of dreamy dreams, get a nice job. Of course, as a film director, I am unlikely to undergo a background check. But there is no call for that sort of work where I live. I would actually like a nice office job at a newspaper, but I have tried our local newspaper. There are no positions open for copy editor. I am not surprised, it's a good job and people in a town of this size are not likely to job-hop. I am actually kind of keen to pursue a job, but I am still not well enough. I worked at a newspaper in London for six years and really enjoyed it. Anyway, schizophrenia I have found ebbs and flows. And being realistic, I am not likely to find a job in this town, with a criminal record, that will pay enough to cover my medical expenses. And I am quite sure that depending on a job for my financial security is likely to bring on a lot of stress and that leads to more episodes of hearing voices and hallucinations. So I have looked all around the houses. I would enjoy volunteering at a newspaper, a sort of unpaid intern, if I could find such a position. I looked into it about five years ago and the Human Resources lady said that there was not actually any physical room for one more person. I know that to be likely true, I have seen the newsroom when I was invited there for an interview about 10 years ago. In the last two months I have had a low episode count and it is causing me to look around and stretch a little, survey my situation. I believe I would do well to have somewhere to go, with social contact and light responsibilities. I will have to start looking around some more.
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