Okay, let's try this again... Lost my whole post last time... I was trying to write that I had a three-day episode, no eating no sleeping... I was in tears... I don't know why it's happening. It has happened once before, on the same three days of the week. I hope it doesn't happen again, I was miserable and it's hard to recover from, too. Well, Thanksgiving is tomorrow and I am looking forward to it, it will be pretty mellow, but fun still. Maybe my brother will join us, I don't know... This year has gone by so fast! Usually I have a rhythm with the year and I experience it fully. This year though, wow... A lot has happened this year, but the time has really run away from me. I am always, as a rule, very happy at this time of year... My birthday is always Labor Day Weekend, my wedding anniversary is four days later and with that I am in the swing of autumn - and grateful for the cooler weather. I am looking forward to sending my Christmas cards this year... I am not sending any to my ex-husband or his father and sisters. Usually I do, but I wrote his father a letter this year explaining that I have schizophrenia (for the first time) and that I felt I did the right thing with a divorce. Now I just think not to drag it out... They never acknowledge my letters and cards anyway, so it's past time for me to move on too... It feels a bit weird. I have been sending Christmas cards to them for 26 years. But I am trying to keep it a happy event. No more awkward greetings to my former in-laws! I still love them very much, but it's time I stepped aside.
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