I have been having a rough week. My doctor upped my antidepressant which interferes with my antipsychotic and I have been jumpy and quick-tempered. I had a long episode over the weekend and have had trouble adjusting back to my normal routines. I am happy that the antidepressant has taken away some of the foggy-mindedness of the antipsychotic but it will still take some getting used to, I think. I want to work with it, though. I would like to be more active in my mind and body, hence the prescription of the antidepressant. I'm more fully aware of how effective the antipsychotic is, how much work it has been doing to keep me calm and stable. I have always had break-through episodes on it, every week, but short-lived ones for the most part and easily handled by going to bed. Now I have to participate a little more, not just coast along, I have to work with this new prescription. I think it's going to be good though. I went to the first appointment with my new therapist last week and it was really good. I think I wouldn't have been ready for her a year ago when I was really under the spell of schizophrenia. I mentioned to her that I was thinking that volunteering for a theater was something I might like to do and it really caught her imagination. She recommended a theater downtown that might be good for me. I had never heard of it. I contacted the technical director and went along to the theater for one of their bi-monthly meetings, but the building was locked. I could hear a rehearsal going on, but no-one was there to receive people for the meeting. I went back home and emailed the technical director again and was invited to the next meeting, happening next week. I hope it is not going to be another flakey moment because this is the first thing I have found in 16 years to capture my attention. If I can do something for this theater I will be happy I think, I want to make more contacts socially and I want something to do. I feel nervous. I haven't done anything like this for years. I don't know what I have to offer, but hopefully whatever it is is welcomed.
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