Brandt Lane 2015. This is the last of my Brandt Lane photographs for the year. We were married on September 3, 1988. I found this little sign in the Brandt Lane garden and I always perk up when I see 1988 around the place. I was ecstatically happy to be with Justin. We were very happy together and I ended it when the schizophrenia happened. I just didn't want to be a drag and I was pretty distressed. I felt I could handle things better if I withdrew and went back to live with my parents. It's not the way I wanted things to go, but I think it has worked out well for both of us. After many years of turmoil, I have accepted my decisions and am living a peaceful, happy life for the most part. With thought, it might be nice for me to check on the garden seasonally throughout the coming year. As a gardener myself, I am good at window boxes as long as I have Miraclegro, which I wholeheartedly recommend to everyone for a profusion of blooms. I would love to do more gardening at my own house, but my parents kind of planned it out like a golf course, my mother likes Augusta National. So it's all azaleas and rhododendrons and camellias. Therefore, I can't really see a riot of sunflowers fitting in any where. Which is kind of fine anyway because with my meds I am sensitive to sunlight. Although I have noticed that, since switching to Latuda, the brown spots on my face have faded quite a bit, which is nice. It was weird when they started to appear, but somewhere, I read that they are a a side effect of Haldol. My doctor wasn't alarmed anyway. Good thing I am not vain. I kind of welcome aging. I have loved old people since I was a child and it's nice to be one. My mom says I'm young, but I do have an AARP card now. They actually sent it to me when I was 48. Then I wasn't ready. But 51 feels like ready. I am just kind of too budget conscious to actually fork out the $16 membership fee. I think if I hunt for things I can use it for, I will still spend more money than usual. And $16 is a trip to get sushi for a special treat.
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